Wednesday, June 16, 2010
Scarlet Letter C
I am now officially branded for cancer-- I had my port surgery. Sort of reminds me of the Scarlet Letter "A". It will give me all the chemo meds. I start Tuesday afternoon. It will be my last day of nursing. I went to count my milk that has filled a huge portion of my freezer and it looks like so much but it is no where close to what I need for Trooper to even get to 1 yr old. So I pumped more and then split an oz of milk! Then I pumped as he cried for me. This is breaking me down. I still can't imagine not nursing him. My chest and arm is sore I can't even have him nurse on the port side since it hurts.