I am really sick of chemo. The sick days seem longer and my "good" days aren't that good. I just so so so want to feel better. I know it will take about 6 months after I stop the chemo to start feeling better and I just want to start now. I am seriously thinking about not doing the last month. Will that extra month even help or matter? My onc dr. says no one knows, he couldn't recruit people to do less than 6 months for a study. You know the whole thing with our society that more is better. I only keep thinking how the chemo is messing me up. I am not the person who will regret not doing it if the cancer comes back. I didn't regret not doing the surgery. Till this day I still think I am so happy I got those years without it.
Chemo is hard on my body and my mind. Feeling like this, I have no idea how I would ever cope with "chemo for life". I am supposed to go back January 26 so I have till then to decide.