I sat the kids down and told them about how I have to stop nursing Trooper. I wanted them to know that this is NOT how it is supposed to be. This is not normal or good. I don't want Princess (my almost 4 yr girl ) to think this is what she should do. What impression have I left her with?? Let a baby cry and wean them when they are so young and that all this "stuff" I have around is normal. Their last memories will not be of me nursing a toddler, but of this horrible situation.
I treasure every nursing I have with him. I will miss most the way he can look up at me and smile at me while still at the breast. He is attached to me, a person, now he will be attached to a bottle, a thing. I hope he will let me hold him and feed him with the bottle.