I have decided I am done with radiation. I feel good with that decision. I was supposed to do 28 days and I did 24 days. So I think that is good. The pain is awful and can only imagine what it would feel like if I did 4 more days of being fried. It will now take 2-3 wks to heal. I do hope the pain goes away soon and that it does not last. Radiation can cause adhesions and that is what causes pain.
I am getting nervous now for the next part of this horrible cancer dx. I am supposed to do surgery. I haven't decided if I will do it or not yet. I will meet with all the different drs again and then decide. It is not simple surgery or this would be easy to say yes to. It is a huge change in my body and pain and a long recovery to go through and not even sure how helpful it will be for my cancer to stay away not reoccur when the odds are so in favor of reoccurring even if you do surgery.
"Resilience is accepting your new reality, even if it's less good than the one you had before. You can fight it, you can do nothing but scream about what you've lost, or you can accept that and try to put together something that's good."
Elizabeth Edwards, RIP
I hope I can get to that point. Still very far off for me but I think I have moved that way an inch or two since the beginning of this.