Sunday, July 4, 2010

Back to Reality

Went to Chicago this weekend. Walked the museums and zoo. Felt so normal, well, except for the bottle feeding part, that was a huge pain. Though, I was normal bottle feeding since that is all I saw and I fit in instead of being the only breastfeeding mom I would see. I walked around thinking I feel so healthy (it was a good day, no chemo effects). How can *I* have stage 3 cancer? Do I look like I have stage 3 cancer? Tuesday is coming and it will shock me back to reality, yep, I have stage 3 cancer and I get chemo and all the horrible effects that bring. I am so dreading it. It will be hard to walk in there now knowing how awful it will make me feel.

I saw part of the movie Stepmom (movie about a mom having cancer and leaving her kids to the new stepmom). I had seen it before but seeing it this time was way different. Too real.

3 comments:

  1. Hang in there, mama. Are you on Facebook? I'm Sheri Jahner over there, add me if you'd like. :) I'll be thinking about you a LOT. Big big hugs. And thank you for your kind words on my blog. I don't feel strong or amazing most of the time. You don't often get a chance to find out how strong you are until you have to be. I replied to your comment, but I'll post here too, you can email me anytime (teacherturtle7@hotmail.com) with questions or venting or whatever. Take care.
    sheri

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  2. I am so glad you had a nice family weekend. Feeling 'normal' in the middle of it all is good. Keep fighting!

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