Sunday, July 4, 2010

Back to Reality

Went to Chicago this weekend. Walked the museums and zoo. Felt so normal, well, except for the bottle feeding part, that was a huge pain. Though, I was normal bottle feeding since that is all I saw and I fit in instead of being the only breastfeeding mom I would see. I walked around thinking I feel so healthy (it was a good day, no chemo effects). How can *I* have stage 3 cancer? Do I look like I have stage 3 cancer? Tuesday is coming and it will shock me back to reality, yep, I have stage 3 cancer and I get chemo and all the horrible effects that bring. I am so dreading it. It will be hard to walk in there now knowing how awful it will make me feel.

I saw part of the movie Stepmom (movie about a mom having cancer and leaving her kids to the new stepmom). I had seen it before but seeing it this time was way different. Too real.


  1. Hang in there, mama. Are you on Facebook? I'm Sheri Jahner over there, add me if you'd like. :) I'll be thinking about you a LOT. Big big hugs. And thank you for your kind words on my blog. I don't feel strong or amazing most of the time. You don't often get a chance to find out how strong you are until you have to be. I replied to your comment, but I'll post here too, you can email me anytime ( with questions or venting or whatever. Take care.

  2. I am so glad you had a nice family weekend. Feeling 'normal' in the middle of it all is good. Keep fighting!