Went to Chicago this weekend. Walked the museums and zoo. Felt so normal, well, except for the bottle feeding part, that was a huge pain. Though, I was normal bottle feeding since that is all I saw and I fit in instead of being the only breastfeeding mom I would see. I walked around thinking I feel so healthy (it was a good day, no chemo effects). How can *I* have stage 3 cancer? Do I look like I have stage 3 cancer? Tuesday is coming and it will shock me back to reality, yep, I have stage 3 cancer and I get chemo and all the horrible effects that bring. I am so dreading it. It will be hard to walk in there now knowing how awful it will make me feel.
I saw part of the movie Stepmom (movie about a mom having cancer and leaving her kids to the new stepmom). I had seen it before but seeing it this time was way different. Too real.