Friday, October 22, 2010

Star Trek

I am on a movie theme kick for my blog title posts!

Having finished the horrible FolFox chemo and now to start even more chemo soon. And I am feeling better since I am on a "break" from treatment. Hopefully the cancer is on a break too and not multiplying during this time! I have thought about how horrible the chemo is. Even my friend who is a dr calls the chemo poison. It really is poison to your body. Anyway, it made me think of the movie Star Trek the Journey Home one where they go back to Earth and save these whales to save the world (or something like that). Well, in one scene they are in a hospital and Star Trek Dr. McCoy sees a patient getting treatment for some illness and just thinks it is crazy what the drs are going to do to the patient and says something like "Is this the dark ages. What are they thinking that would be helpful??" and basically thinks the way they practice medicine is crazy and barbaric. To which I think one day people will look back and say "People were so desperate to get rid of cancer that they took poison." Just think about how we used to treat many things in the past and we would say that is crazy, how did people think that was a good idea. I feel in my heart, mind, and body chemo is poison and it is crazy for me to do it (and even more so for radiation that I will be having!) but I am desperate and no choice as the drs say "Take this or die." whenever I object to the poisons they want to give me. It sucks knowing you are doing something stupid and it will hurt you and may even kill you. It is weird to say radiation and poison is bad for healthy people but great for sick people. Doesn't that sound SO MESSED UP!


  1. I am just sending you a note of love & prayers. You don't know me, but I check your blog often as it has really touched me (and am waiting for an update on you hopefully soon). I just want you to know that me & my family are keeping you & yours in our prayers.

    Much love to you today!